Night Comes To Tallahassee

[we_bring_hell]

The Bar does her best to mother the underage patrons of the Bar, nudging them gently towards self-care and withholding harmful things, but she is not omniscient. She couldn't have known not to give Harrowhark Nonagesimus pushpins and index cards and colorful string.

Harrow has secured a small sideroom in the library, the equivalent of a grad student cubicle, and something awful is taking shape there; the crazy conspiracist murder board equivalent of the bone construct lurking in the depths of Canaan House. There is color-coding. There are crossreferences. There are Tarot cards mixed in. There's a map of Canaan House. There are accidental yarn pentagrams that have somehow not yet summoned the soul of Pepe Silvia.

Harrowhark is dressed way down, and yet somehow at her most feral and goblin-like, sockfooted and gloveless in soft pants and black hoodie, as she shifts the cards around and examines new configurations. Ever so often she refers to her journal. She is humming something under her breath.

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[lightamidchaos]

"Perhaps."

It is amazing how much doubt can be expressed in a single word.

[we_bring_hell]

She does look at him now, a quick sideways look. "The only other explanations I can imagine are more sinister, and I do not believe Lady Ingress is manipulative in that way."

[lightamidchaos]

He blinks, surprised.

"Sinister? No. I would not think that of her."

A beat of silence falls, and then--

"Perhaps she just - wanted. To kiss you."

[we_bring_hell]

She turns to look him more fully in the face now. "Lan Wangji. I have never been accused of lacking in ego. But I can freely admit that I am not the kind of woman people want to--kiss."

"No doubt she was just being kind. The temple is not, to my knowledge, a terribly significant area for such things."

[lightamidchaos]

"I am not the right person to say."

No matter what Wei Ying may think, Lan Wangji has never been drawn to a woman. (Not even Mianmian. Perhaps especially not Mianmian, although he does admire her courage and honor.)

"Perhaps. I do not know. I do not think she was being sinister, though. And there are other ways to show affection. Still--"

How does he even ask this. How.

"--Gideon. She is not... prone to jealousy, is she?"

[we_bring_hell]

She closes her eyes. "Gideon absolutely does not see me that way."

"I have seen her magazines. And I am not Dulcinea Septimus." She turns back to the tangles of thread, unaccountably upset, to glare at a particular card.

"If Griddle is angry it will only be because I allowed Ingress to function as my cavalier for the night. Despite being coerced into it she has proven surprisingly attached to the role."

[lightamidchaos]

"Mn," he says, and leaves it at that. He has not met Gideon Nav. Harrow is the one who knows her best. He can, however, appreciate the difficulty of Harrow's situation - especially if Gideon does not care for her in the way that she would want.

(He knows that feeling all too well, and spares an instant to be amazed and grateful for how things have now changed.)

There is something she has said, however, that surprises him.

"Ingress was your cavalier?"

[we_bring_hell]

"By no means," she says, coloring under her paint. "To be a true cavalier is not something that can be for a night. But she played the role--she was the sword to my adept, she protected me and made sure I got home safely when I, ah, overextended myself."

"Gideon might justly consider that - her job was encroached on. But the kiss would no doubt be the occasion for jokes."

[lightamidchaos]

"Ah."

For some reason, he shows a complete lack of surprise at the idea that an adept - and especially a necromancer - might overextend and need assistance.

"I am glad you were protected, in any case."

A beat of silence.

"Have you seen Ingress since?"

[we_bring_hell]

See, this guy gets it. Totally normal.

She shakes her head. "Not once she brought me back. It has been only a day."

"I am being foolish to worry about it at all, under the circumstances," she chided herself.

[lightamidchaos]

Very simply:

"I do not think you are a foolish person."

[we_bring_hell]

There is a long pause that cannot be called a staring contest because there's no eye contact.




"It is just that I can't remember ever being kissed before," she says quietly.

A muscular swordswoman. A dank crypt. Sweating blood. Is this how Harrow imagined her first kiss?


Well, yes, obviously.

[lightamidchaos]

"Then it matters."

His tone is as quiet as hers.

[we_bring_hell]

She exhales slowly.

"I shall remember her kindness."

They spoke before of distinguishing pity from kindness, of course.

[lightamidchaos]

Indeed.

"If you wish to know," he starts, cautiously. "Why. I do not think it would go amiss to ask. Not with her."

"And if you do not wish to know, that is different."

[we_bring_hell]

Her throat tightens at the thought. "Perhaps," she says quietly.

"These matters," she says, slowly, carefully. "Trouble me. I am... I aspire to control. Of both mind and body."

[lightamidchaos]

"I understand."

Very low, and very, very certain.

"But sometimes-- sometimes there is someone. Who changes everything."

He touches his headband.

"This symbolizes both things, in fact. Control and self-regulation -- and the ability to relax both when with the right person."

[we_bring_hell]

At his revelation about the headband, Harrow touches her cheek; the paint; and nods.

"When I lose control I do hateful things," she says quietly. "Gideon makes me lose control like no one else can, and she has--suffered for it."

You may hate me all you wish; I still don’t even remember about you half the time.

[lightamidchaos]

"That can change. You can change it," he assures her.

"When I first met Wei Ying, we fought. Later - I was responsible for overseeing discipline among the disciples, and he--"

He shakes his head, remembering days upon days in the library.

"Things changed, or I did. Perhaps both."

[we_bring_hell]

"The Mountain Goats," she says in a low voice, "have a whole album about two people who are destroying each other but can't tear themselves away from one another."

She quotes, rather than sings: "'I am drowning; there is no sign of land. You are coming down with me. Hand in unlovable hand.'"

[lightamidchaos]

"Prayer and battle cry, you said before," Lan Wangji reminds her.

"If you are drowning, learn to swim together."

[we_bring_hell]

The key, she thinks, is the word unloveable. But her throat is completely locked now, the occlusion complete. She feels cold, wet arms around her; cold, icy hands wrapped around her bare wrists. There is a presence behind her, and it overwhelms her and embraces.

She closes her eyes, and takes a shuddering breath.

[we_do_bones]

There was a distinct lack of Harrow when Gideon burst into Room 99 after leaving Ingress and taking the stairs two at a time. Her adept wasn't in the main room, wasn't in the bathroom, and apparently had not been shoved under either bed or into the wardrobe, and in fact there was no sign of her at all except for a note which Gideon read before impotently bellowing: "Harrow!" into the empty room.

The note crumpled in her palm, she considers her options:

1. Go find Harrow now, face paint and shower be damned, so as to take full advantage of this wave of mixed aggravation and fear, or:
2. Do as the note commands, because Harrow might be more likely to listen if Gideon had clearly followed her orders first.

She sniffs delicately at the pit of her shirt and recoils; fine.

Fifteen minutes later, freshly washed and painted and wearing some slim-cut black pants of some kind of thick, stretchy material (she'd tried the jeans Bar had provided in her size, but was dissatisfied in their range of motion) and the first t-shirt that she could find, Gideon the Ninth slams her way into the library and yells:

"Honey, I'm home!"

[we_bring_hell]

Something humanoid but gangling and covered in red hair rouses itself from a nap on a table and hoots, "OOK!" angrily. At the same time, a door into a small room off of the main room bursts open and Harrow hisses, "Griddle!"

[we_do_bones]

Gideon slips off her dark glasses and tucks them into the breast pocket of her new shirt with the effect of having the printed-on skeleton look like it's holding onto them for her, and grins without humor at Harrowhark. She'd worried that the shower and painting and having a few moments to think might dull her aggravation, but nope! Just looking at Harrow is making her blood pressure skyrocket.

"Did you miss me, my sweet?" she asks, a few registers louder than normal, and saunters over with a faint jingle of hardware from the rapier slung at her hip, only to stop at the sight of the... whatever it is Harrow's doing.

"Oh, okay. So you've gone crazy crazy."