"Gideon Nav is the one who told my parents what I had done. I punished her for a long time. As I punished myself. And when I realized it was their choice, not mine or hers, I continued to punish her for trying to escape me. She has never known that what she survived as an infant was not a plague. It was me."
Gideon will probably kill her, she thinks. And be justified. That's the problem with being the monster. Her face is calm, though. Placid, although the disturbed facepaint conveys her inner distress in a way she cannot control.
"My life belongs to the Ninth. I should not risk it so. But I asked her to be my cavalier. Her claim on me is..."
"If you reject other people's ideas about your morality," she says, with just a subliminal tremor in her voice, "you must hold yourself to something."
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Date: 2020-09-19 04:25 pm (UTC)Inhale. Exhale. All secrets on the table, yes?
"Gideon Nav is the one who told my parents what I had done. I punished her for a long time. As I punished myself. And when I realized it was their choice, not mine or hers, I continued to punish her for trying to escape me. She has never known that what she survived as an infant was not a plague. It was me."
Gideon will probably kill her, she thinks. And be justified. That's the problem with being the monster. Her face is calm, though. Placid, although the disturbed facepaint conveys her inner distress in a way she cannot control.
"My life belongs to the Ninth. I should not risk it so. But I asked her to be my cavalier. Her claim on me is..."
"If you reject other people's ideas about your morality," she says, with just a subliminal tremor in her voice, "you must hold yourself to something."